life changing experience

Hello. It's actually 22.49 on my lappie clock, since the last post on you, my life right now is totally different.

Here I am. October 27th, writing this post, listening to Ke$ha, telling you the difference. First of all, I was studying in Visual Communication Design in Malang as you know myself before, few months ago, now I'm here, studying Accounting in STAN, majoring Treasury, located in Southern Tangerang which near to Jakarta, actually.

Everybody's taken a pose here. Too mainstream hahaha

Finally, i got a chance to spread my wings and fly, I used to dream about getting out of my hometown soooo bad, Alhamdulillah, with million prayers and luck, my dream is finally coming true :) I thought, life in here would be so much easier, cause many people said that my major isn't a difficult one, it was never easy to me. I find it soo difficult getting over my previous major, Visual Communication Design, which I adored a lot although I oftenly do it's tasks at a very last minutes (my bad hehehe :p). Dealing with numbers instead of pictures, colors and brainstorming my creative mind. I guess it's just not fit to me, like forever. I am what I am, about photography, doing things with computer and making something is my thing ! Not dealing with somebody's financial account or trying to solve problems with numbers. It;s just not me. :(

But hey, I keep reminding myself, telling myself, that the reason I am here, I want to be here, because of my parents. They want it so badly, even worse than myself. I remember my mom said, "My life's complete if one of my kids going to STAN, so this legacy could be delivered. I know, maybe one of my kids." That words keep repeating in my mind over and over again, I'll never forget that. So, here I am, trying to make my parents proud.

Not that I don't want to be here, I, myself want it too! But just not as big as my parents. I have these thoughts. My ego, my dreams to be a designer would be delivered someday, as long as I can feed myself much enough, so that I can invest some of my money for that. The good news is I'll never broke , cause I got my salary from working for government.

Those positive thoughts keep me alive and stay strong in here. Hopefully, I can be somebody's better for Indonesia's future's sake !